There are thoughts you think and there are thoughts others put into your head.
When I am done thinking about all things that can wrong between us and discarded those thoughts, someone will come up with them again - the unanswerable questions, the doubts, the suspicion.
It's not easy to restore your trust when it's been broken, but it's even more difficult when there's no one to tell you, you can trust again.
I could be jealous and insecure and see things from a prejudiced wife's point of view. But why would a mother see her son in the same light and worry for her daughter-in-law? Why would friends want to shield from the pain they know I could feel? I'm not alone in seeing what I do; others see it too. They see him and her and they sense what I do.
And yet he denies it. And leaves me wondering whether I should believe him - the one person I've believed the - or others around us: him, her and me.
Is it just cruel fate that keeps bringing me up against the same blocks? Or is this a sign that I need to stop indulging in wishful thinking? Am I closing my eyes to the reality or am I seeing things that don't exist?
