Sunday, January 27, 2008

Shut me up

What is it about what I say that puts you off so completely?
Or is it the way I say it? Or is it just me that makes you want to shut me up?

Last night I tried talking to him about what most couples usually talk about after they've been married so long - kids. He said he didn't want to talk about it. So what's weird, you ask, he just might not want to talk about it. Well, we used to talk a lot about having children when we were dating. But there has been an uneasy silence on the topic since we got married. I sensed he did not want to talk about kids yet. So I didn't, all these years... But it was after great deliberation that I broke the silence, because someone had to. And it was with great love that I broached the topic. He shut me up, snubbed me, just like that.

So I changed tracks. Became funny. Maybe that's what he'd like to see? But that put him off too... I tried being myself and that was too kiddish for him. Oh no! I was "acting" like a kid. No, I'm not cute and I'm not grwon up, I'm not emotional, I'm just stupid. So fine, I'll shut up. Now you talk.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

What is it about us
That makes me want to fall in love with you
All over again?