Sorry

I'm sorry

If my love leaves you stifled for space.

And I'm sorry

That your love has become such a blank space.

'I'm sorry,' people tell me sympathetically;

I'm sorry too, I say, I loved you so blindly.

I'm sorry

I tried to be a friend like another.

And you're probably sorry too

That I infringed on your boys' night together.

But I'm sorry darling,

You forgot to tell me -

When to hold back

And when to give like forever?

When to leave you alone

And when to be your companion?

I'm sorry I forgot

The difference between a husband and a lover.

A letter to my husband

Darling,

For the last few years of my life I've trusted you more than I could have trusted myself. Believed in you and your lies blindly, not ever thinking they were lies at all. But now things have changed. And I'm not so sure about us. I would want to still believe in you, but you are not helping me. You are not helping me at all!

I don't even know if I can believe my eyes anymore. And if I were to take your word for it, they don't see the truth at all. Should I believe what you say darling? Why is your truth so different from mine?

And why are you doing this to me? It's not a game anymore. It's my life you are playing with. And I have no way of telling you to stop because you don't know how you are messing up my mind. But my love isn't innocent now.

I hate to be thinking about life after us is over. And I wonder if things are really so bad for me to be thinking about this? Because you won't accept they are and I can't deny they aren't. I don't know if I should fight for your affections again or just let you go. And I don't know if you will let me go! But why would you want to hold on to me? Am I worth the pain? What is it that makes it so difficult for you to tell me the truth?

Perhaps, you still love me (?)

Yours,
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Questions

My questions, do they make you uncomfortable?
Drown them.
In the senseless sounds of your silence.

My questions, do they remind you of your guilt?
You answer them still
When you evade them.

My questions, do they sound all the same to you?
Then how is it that you forget them
Though you've heard them so often?

My questions, why aren't they satisfied with your answers?
That's probably because
You forgot to tell me the truth!